can’t speak…

My wife and I went into the doctors office for her 13 week check up for what would be our 6th child. I, like always, hung out in the car, making phone calls and sending e-mails and text messages…..this time I got a text from her telling me to come inside. When I got inside they told us they could not find a heart beat, the baby that once was will not ever be. I believe  God will use this for good and one day we will be reunited in Heaven.  I tried to simply hold my wife, trying to console her and maintain. my feelings for it all can be read in a text I sent my best buddy and brother in law Will…..baby has no heartbeat, no life, don’t call, can’t talk now.  I could just stand there, as soon as I tried to talk I would cry, So I did what I knew to do, I didn’t talk. This poem I read does a good job of summing it up:

“For A Moment”

I saw for just a moment, your little arms and legs.
The little blur they said was you, but now you’ve gone away.

I heard for just a moment,the beating of your heart.
The sound that held such promise, but soon it would depart.

I dreamt for just a moment,of the day I’d hold you tight.
I’d listen for your little breath, and rock you through the night.

I cried for just a moment, when they said that you had gone.
I laid alone in silence, that seemed so very long.

I prayed for just a moment,that you would be reborn.
Into my arms you would come and forever would be warm.

I was for just a moment, your father.
Who laughed and cried and meant so much, if only for a while.

In that single moment,when I finally said farewell.
I knew that we would meet again little baby, for time will only tell.

Michelle Ann Burch